Tonight's bedtime was so sweet, and so different for each boy!
First there was Urizen, my little monkey! He LOVES to play, and every time I put him in our bed he crawls away as fast as possible to play "peek a boo" ;)! He turns to look at me, peering over his shoulder and giving me the sweetest, "melt your heart" look ever. He was tired though and even though squirming for a bit, fell asleep nursing and holding on to me, snuggled close. ...I love how his little body still fits so perfectly next to mine, ...how fast he is growing, how incredible that nearly a year has passed since we gazed into each others eyes for the first time! How I wish I could hold on to these moments more. My baby, my dear one, ... my sweet little Uri.
Tennyson's prayer tonight was the most memorable and the reason for this note. After the usual struggle to get to bed ;) ...he finally snuggled next to me, tucking his legs between mine as he said "I have to put them inside because YOU'RE warm, mama", and then he said: "Thank-you God for a really nice day, ... and you're welcome for living forever like you do, ...I wish I was like God, a God, the 4th God and could live always too," ... at which point Xander pipes up, "you WILL live forever, ...here on earth 'till you're old, then you'll die and then you'll live in Heaven", ... but little Tennyson cried a bit and said, "but I don't like death and dying, ... I like this earth and I want to live forever HERE!" ... OH! my sweet boys, thinking such deep thoughts and feeling so tremendously already! I pray that I give you guidance and wisdom and that the Lord helps me to raise you in the right way.
Xander, my little 7 year-old going on 13! You feel everything so deeply and are such an amazing boy. Justice runs strong in you and the world can be a tough place sometimes. You care so deeply for everything, even the cicadas, spiders and ants you find. You won't let anyone around you harm any living thing. (I LOVE your sweet nature and I'm SO SO SO proud of the amazing person you're becoming!)
Tonight you were all about the cuddling, ... hugs and kisses and many "I love you's". I feel like you realize how fast you're growing up and you want to hold on to it as much as I do! I'm so glad you're as attached as you are, and yet that you're as mature and grown-up and able to handle the world as well. God has blessed me so much with you!
I love you my 3 boys, ... I'm so blessed to have you and your Dad to complete me!
