Just when I feel full to bursting with happiness and joy, more is added to my life. Sometimes I feel like this must already be heaven, ... that somehow a past life was forgotten and this is perfection. If only it could last for an eternity...
How did I get so blessed with such a husband and three such wonderful boys? Every thing I could have possibly wished for Sebastian to be, he IS. Amazing how each day with your soul-mate can be more wonderful than the next, even with tiredness from raising three little ones and working and house repair and lessons and homework and LIFE, still my heart swells each morning when I look over at my sleeping Love and hear his breathing, feel his warmth beside me.
And Xander, my firstborn. You have grown in leaps and bounds this summer and especially the last 2 weeks since school has started!. We had the best summer, just having you around all day and getting to see you play with your brothers. So many wonderful memories that I will treasure always.
I'm so proud of you, my little 7-year-old going on 25! The things you talk about with us lately, ... philosophy, religion, science, crazy mathematical problems, and reading SO MUCH! It's so wonderful being your mom! I just hope you know how very proud I am and how thankful I am each day that you are not only my son, but my friend.
Tennyson, little (but not so little anymore!) Tennyson. You were such a dear tonight, ... you've been battling a cold and I felt badly that I didn't spend the time I wanted to with you today. What with Urizen and Zack and meals and school for Xander, other than some times doing reading with you, I didn't get to "see" you like I wanted to! And then, the baby went to sleep early and I got to hold you while we watched "3 Amigos", ... you snuggled into me, saying "you're nice and warm, Mama", and I remembered how you were just so little just a bit ago!
Then tonight in bed, ... after prayers and lights out, you pulled me in tight, and said "Mama, will you hold me forever?"...and I said I wished I could, ... and you said "please Mom, hold me until you die!". Ah me, ... how does my middle son manage to grab my heart-strings so? (Is it because he resembles his dad so at this age?) How could I EVER let go of my little snuggler to go do house-work?!?!?
And Urizen, ... at the start of your toddlerhood! You take 3-4 ateps in a row now and are SO proud of yourself! How I love this stage, and yet how exciting that in the next year we'll get to hear all the things you are thinking and feeling and see what a glorious little person you are becoming! Right now you LOVE "Brown Bear, Brown Bear" and will "read" it to yourself at least 5 times a day! (You find it and look through the pages saying "brooowww beeaaayy, brooowww beaaay" over and over!). Not yet a year yet my darling and still I see you following in your brother's footsteps of overachieving! You are a bit more advanced in "fine motor" skills it seems however, and you LOVE figuring out how things "fit" or work together!
It's so wonderful seeing how unique each of you three is.
How I treasure motherhood, and how I hope and pray for many, many years to come to enjoy it!
