Moments and Musings

Three boys, ... So much love and so much joy, ... how am I SO blessed ?

The ages of 7, 4 and only 7 months are so different and so uniquely amazing.

My Xander is growing up so fast (wasn't it just yesterday he was a baby in my arms?!?!?). School and lessons and new friends and new challenges... life is accelerating! Xander is such an incredible human being already, at only age 7. I'm constantly amazed at his maturity and kindness, understanding and unselfishness. He is so smart and yet not prideful, ... he's the head of his class right now in reading (level 27+ and the closest to him is a girl reading at level 23). Xander enjoys school I can tell, yet every day it seems he's a bit tearful with wanting to "be with YOU Mom!". I think it's wonderful to have him learning and growing as he is in a school environment, yet I miss him and sometimes wonder if school is the right place for him. Still, I know in my heart that it is, and Lincoln is wonderful. I look forward to the years to come with more challenging material as I see him reveling in that. Every day he has things to share (I'm SO grateful we have that kind of relationship!) We work through issues and try to find solutions, and I hope that as he grows he realizes how incredibly proud I am of him! He is going to go amazing places in his life and I pray every day that God will bring him happiness and joy in who he is.



Little Tennyson (NOT so little!) He is so like his big brother at times and yet so VERY unique! How do two people's genetic material produce such incredible variation? (Of course, every soul is so individual, how can I be surprised?!??!) 4 years old is so wonderful and so amazing (and so challenging too!) Tennyson is so introspective lately, thinking so deeply about life and death and God and reality and fantasy and EVERYTHING it seems! The other day he tells me "Mom, (not Mommy or Mama anymore he says!) ... God and Jesus are all mixed up and yet not, ... aren't they?" I know I've spoken with him about Jesus and about God and I may have said how Jesus wasn't just God's son, but God himself, but this still blew me away that he would have a grasp of the Trinity at age 4! He's so sweet and I realize that despite his tendency to go into his own world and tune out everything else (SO like his father in that!), he really does take it seriously when he realizes that he's made a mistake. Last week he was so upset about misbehaving and losing video game privileges that he hung his head and ran off saying "I am SO stupid!" Of course I corrected him and in talking with him, he informed me that he wished he could "rewind the days" and go back to before he misbehaved! Oh my sweet little guy:)
He also has been concerned with death lately. I remember Xander going through the same thing at this age. Tennyson said in the car yesterday "if we get to the day we're going to die I want God to rewind the days to THIS day" (I guess he knew we hadn't died on THAT day!)

Tennyson is also SO loving and sweet to his baby brother! He loves to "hold Urizen's hand!" I TOTALLY understand! Urizen's little hands are so soft and wonderful to caress, ... I wish I could do so forever! Tennys0n simply ADORES his baby brother. I hope that they have a great relationship in the future :)

And then there is my baby. Urizen Maximilian, ... my little snuggle bug and sincere little bundle of love. He gives the best kisses and the way he holds on to me and pulls me close just makes me melt. I hope I always remember how his little hands feel on my skin and fondling my hair. His laugh is incredible, so full, so joyous, so without hesitation and falsity. I don't know if we'll have another baby and so I treasure every glance, every giggle, every smile of joy and look of love. He's sitting up now and rolling all over, and signing "light" and saying "cup" and "cold" and "Dadda" and now "nainai' (meaning "night-night" or "nee-nee" I can't tell). I feel my heart will burst sometimes with the sheer joy of my life at this moment!

I'm so blessed and happy to have 3 sons, ... God is great in His plan!

(Here's a quote that a friend shared, I love it and hope my boys stay close always, at least in spirit!)

There must be a special place in heaven for mothers of three sons. You certainly can tell them on earth. They’re those ladies with amused, bemused faces and an amazing tolerance for disaster – for they have learned that shouting doesn’t help.

No other combination of children, not even twins, can create so much chaos or camaraderie. Even the most introspective child will join the team – them against you – and like all good players, they encourage each other to bigger feats of daring.

We recommend the advice of so many successful mothers of three boys. Give them as much outdoor playtime as possible, and indoors, set up two rooms: one for sleeping, with nothing but beds and bureaus, and the other for playing, with much climbing equipment. With three children, one is bound to be quieter than the others and he probably will need a corner somewhere else.

You will be frazzled in the early years but when your boys grow up, we think you’ll find yourself perhaps more treasured than most other mothers.


I treasure every moment I'm given with my little "princes of men"! Thank-you God!