Not sure how long this post will be. It's been forever since Ive written and I felt the need for some positive writing or creativity, rather than typical bill paying or future planning, etc!
Funny how my days go by so fast and I look back and realize weeks have passed and the "day to day" has obscured my little "remembrance's" of the boys!
I'm trying to plan a trip to San Diego right now, ... we really shouldn't go as we don't have any money saved, but I so want to! Tennyson will be a bit younger than Xander was when we went last. I was about 11 weeks pregnant with him, and I was feeling pretty yucky. I still had a great time though and I would just LOVE a beach vacation with my three boys! Oh, I pray we can figure it out, ... it would be lovely.
Still, if not, life is good regardless! My Love is as wonderful as ever. We are so blessed to have the time together we do. How amazing and wonderful is it that we live at this time and this place and he happened upon this job at IBM where he gets to work from home! I love having him here, ... turning around and seeing him smile over a link, ... or seeing him focused on his work when his forehead puckers just a bit, ... sharing the same music, the same view out the window, the same little funny things the boys say throughout the day. I love that as I type this I can hear him playing video games in the next room and feel his presence here with me. Heaven had better be like this, ... with all my boys nearby :)!!!
Alexander is growing so fast! I look at him and I can't believe it has already been more than 5 and half years since he entered my life. (more than 6 really, ... he made himself felt quite keenly even before birth ;) !!!) I see this little boy/ man and it's the strangest mixture of watching a hyper mature 5 going on 12 year-old and yet also, a little boy who loves being little and playing and just being silly.
At the park the other day (I took the boys after Kris and Les left, so nice to spend a whole day just playing!) Xander put on a "show" for me, probably at least 30 minutes worth, about God and Satan fighting. It was incredible, ... he was able to convey through his movements and entire battle and epic saga of this eternal struggle. He had an ongoing commentary of course, about the size of the battle ground, the weapons (lighting and such), the fact that God would never be defeated by the Devil, etc. It was so endearing to watch, ... things like this always get me thinking about what he will end up as in the future :) (Film Director? Sci Fi writer? Philosopher? Some scientific field as yet to be discovered?) I hope I stay healthy and have a long life to be able to see him grow up! Oh, ... I love you my first born!
Tennyson, ... you, like your brother have such a memory! Today, when I said we needed to go to Target and then the Dr's, you piped up from the back seat, "We going to see Dr. McCoy?" It's been 4 weeks or so since you saw her! ?!?!? HOW did you remember that? And then we were listening to "Queens of the Stone Age: Lullabies to Paralyze" and you were just taking it in quietly and then all of a sudden your little voice pipes up "this is tamborine music mama!"
(We haven't been to music class since the spring! How do you recognize that!?!?!? My little musical child!)
Well, ... it IS late, ... more on here soon!
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